I've Had Enough! (Day One)

That's it! I've had enough! From 3-4pm today I had not one, not two, not three, but FOUR toasties! That's excessive, that's piggish and it's so incredibly stupid of me. I eat when I'm happy, I eat when I'm sad, I eat when I'm content, I eat when I'm bored, I eat ALL THE TIME! I'm tired of it! The Susan Powter is coming out in me now...what did she say? something about "I've had enough"? Whatever - I can see the white butch haircut and I know she was all about getting healthy finally.

So here's my problem. I hate fruit and I hate cold veggies. I love cooked veggies, will eat nearly every kind - brussel spouts are even good! So - what do I snack on? Hm - candy bars, cheez-its, cheez-its party mix, easy mac...good grief. I'll snack on whatever's within my dirty mitts - ugh!

Solution? not a clue

But here are a few places I'm going to start.
1-Anne's "grocery store" is leaving the Clinic. I have a bin with all kinds of lunch things - all microwavable, all loaded with sodium - they're coming back here to the house. I'll bring one per day - that's it - no going back for seconds with the Easy Mac isn't "enough."

2- I've been resisting the candy bar a day thing for quite a while now - don't anticipate that being a problem in the future thankfully. Fortunately, I already have Shawn and Sarah on my side at work - they know if they bring treats to keep them out of my eyesight - thank you guys!!! Shawn even said when he brought an apple to work he could bring a second one for me - doggone it, I wish I liked fruit. Ugh!

3-I'm blogging daily - i'm keeping track of whatever I eat and I'm holding myself accountable to this blog - whether anyone else is reading or not, we'll see. But eventually I'm guessing a friend or two will be harassing me over the one Hershey Kiss I eat!

4 - I'm sticking with weighing myself once a week...it's been on Thursdays and today it was...well...you'll have to keep reading to find out! ;)

5 - I'm getting on that "Fa-weeeeekin"* treadmill twice a week to start...up to every day or walking outside once it warms up. I KNOW how good I feel once I get done on the treadmill - it's getting started that sucks monkeys (for lack of a better phrase).

Ok - I think that's it...I was doing a lot of thinking while I was driving home today...amazing how much thinking time you get in when you drive 25 minutes home, no...and I have a whole bunch of other goals, but I'm gonna start with this one first. The others will fall in line after it.

I do have motivation to lose weight. Dad issued a "Healthy Anne" challenge on New Years - if I lose 30 lbs by July 1, I'll get $1000. Niiiice! That'll buy my remote car starter and my Kindle OR be a good start to a new washer and dryer. I MUST remember the goal is not the cash, it's my health that's benefiting most!

Back to the car ride - I was thinking, like I said, about making some bad choices and Ken Davis came on KDNW and reminded us that like Peter, we want to be able to say to God that "I fought the good fight" and then be able to wear our crowns of righteousness. I keep forgetting that God is in control, he's the one with the answers and Satan is the one tempting me - "making" me eat all that food and get disgustingly chubby**. We're such a "now" generation, it's hard to forget that the long run is coming sooner than later! If I'd kept to my budget instead of buying all kinds of sweaters and shoes, my car'd have been paid off last month and I'd be paying on my student loans already! Stupid! See - lack of self control. I can't do it myself, I know that...I'm relying on God to hold me through the hard parts and laugh with me through the easy parts.

So - those of you who have stuck it out! here it is! I need to lose 30 lbs - my average weight over a month is 195, so I need to be at 165 by July 1 for some cash. Today's weight? 200 :(

What did Anne eat today? (the question is what DIDN'T Anne eat today?)
Diet Coke (prob'ly 6 so far)
Oatmeal chocolate chip breakfast cookie
Easy Mac cup
1 Schwan's bacon/egg/cheese toastie
4 Walmart toasties
1 Eggo toaster strudel thingy
2 mugsful Cheez-it party mix (chex, chees-its, pretzels, bagel bites, etc)

Thanks for listening!!!! Have a great day!
(and I did have a good day otherwise - very productive and the sun shone all day!)

Oh! I almost forgot! I've still been reading and watching movies! I watched "Smart People" with Sarah Jessica, Dennis Quaid and Ellen Page today - cute movie, slow moving, but cute story. I've finished Jamie and Claire and have been reading about Eragon - am about 1/2 way through Brisingr right now. I also bought Inkspell/Inkheart the other day so will read those when I'm done with Eragon. I'm planning on seeing Benjamin Button this weekend and will update you on that one too! :)



*see Coleman Larsen's CarePages on January 15, 2009 for explanation on that one
**don't even say it - I AM chubby - a 5'3" woman should NOT weigh 200 lbs! My knees ache, my head hurts and my belly protrudes like a woman who is 4-months pregnant - NOT good! Don't argue with me - I'm stating facts! :) Yes, I love myself for who I am.